Showing posts with label Baby. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Baby. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Did I achieve 2011 goals and what are my 2012 goals?

So here are the questions I posed one year ago. Let's see how I did.

  • Get Hope into a "big girl" bed (hopefully Jan. 2011)
    • CHECK - pretty easy transition except for climbing out of her bed repeatedly at the beginning and playing with her toys at night and nap
  • Get nursery ready for new baby (again Jan. 2011)
    • CHECK - but not until March really
  • Clean out office/gym area and make it more defined and less cluttered (Feb. 2011)
    • CHECK
  • Birth a healthy baby (ideally without having to be induced this time) (March 2011)
    • CHECK, went into labor by myself - 10 days early, had baby with no drugs
  • Make a smooth transition from a family of 3 to a family of 4
    • CHECK - Hope had little issues with her baby brother
  • Develop a schedule where I can get in my workouts with 2 kids while still nursing (that is going to hurt those early morning workouts, any advice?)
    • Kinda CHECK - I think I did pretty well considering no early morning runs really because I am still nursing (and hate pumping) and the lack of sleep until just recently
  • Get back into pre-pregnancy running shape (no date because I don't want to try to over due it)
    • Another kinda CHECK, I mean I did not PR, but some of my races were close
  • Participate in the Race for the Cure 5k (this is in May, just 6 weeks after I am due, so I say participate instead of run, because I may be pushing a double jogging stroller in this one)
    • CHECK - I started pushing the stroller, but it was so crowded the hubs ended up doing it so I could do a little bit of running
  • Run the Peachtree Road Race (10k), ideally in under 55 minutes (PR is 50:02), but again, not going to push myself.
    • CHECK - ran it in 52:26 (6.31 miles)
  • Run the 13.1 Marathon in Atlanta in October
    • CHECK, but after so much lack of sleep and poor training (due to lack of sleep), it was not a great race for me.
  • Would like to run some more (3 new) local fun races (5k's and other lengths that aren't traditional)
    • Ran 2 new races this year (a 4 miler in June and 5k in November)
  • Develop a stronger relationship with my husband (see they aren't all about running)
    • CHECK - we had a really good year, especially considering our family grew and we didn't sleep, can't wait for next year
  • Have 110 blog entries in 2011
    • FAIL - I got really bad at the end of the year, I am going to blame the little guy again. 
  • Run 750 miles in 2011 (I would love to say 1,000 but with the whole pregnancy and giving birth thing, I think 750 is going to be ambitious enough)
    • FAIL - I ran 680.92 according to my records which could be off, but not by that much.  I tried to keep track in my training log book and think I did pretty well.  Will try for 750 again this year.
2012 Goals
  1. Run 750 miles
  2. Blog more (110 again)
  3. Increase Interval training/Tempo runs - aim for 4 times a month (30 min HIIT on 1/3 was 3.12 miles)
  4. Increase bond between my daughter and son (it's important to me that they have a good relationship with each other, especially since they are not the same gender)
  5. Enjoy my time with my children - try not to be so rigid with my schedules
  6. Submit a recipe for a contest (there is one that is due the end of March, so I think I will try that hopefully)
  7. Investigate an herb garden again (don't have to start it this year, so think about how to do it right)
  8. PR a race this year (doesn't matter the distance)
  9. Accept changes in my life and try not the dwell
  10. Aim to do 10 races this year
  11. Go on a date with my husband that is not a wedding, anniversary, or holiday party (yep, I am aiming for just one considering last year was one and that was before the little man came)
  12. Continue to build a better relationship with hubs (I know, how subjective, right). 
  13. Try to be a more positive person.
  14. Abs workouts 3 days a week (abs are still very weak, but not sure they will ever get strong after 2 pregnancies).
  15. Embrace my new roles (not going to get into this right now)
What are your goals?  Anything else I should add? 

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Another kick to the head


When it rains, it pours.  So I took the little man to the peds for his 6 months check up.  I mentioned again, that we are having trouble with him sleeping still.  Well his sleeping is so bad, that it is now affecting his growth.  He has dropped off in height, weight, and head circumference. 

                                   Before 6 months                            At 6 months
Height                         40-50th percentile                         25th percentile
Weight                        25th percentile                              10th percentile
Head circumference     5th percentile                                2nd percentile

I took him to the ped at 5 months because his sleep was so bad that I wanted to have him checked out (he checked out fine), but they weighed him then and in one month, he actually lost 2oz.  Yikes!!! 

So he is on probation.  He has to come back in one month for another weight check.  The doc is only mildly concerned because he did meet all of his developmental milestones, so his lack of sleep is only affecting his growth currently.  Our doc thinks that because he is not sleeping enough, he is not giving his body enough rest in order to grow, but also, because he is not sleeping, he is burning more calories.  Double whammy!

So we are also on order to start solids twice a day too.  We started solids last week, and he is not crazy about them.  Some days he would eat it and some days no.  Well after the ped appointment, I went home and gave him 1 tablespoon of rice cereal and 1 tablespoon pureed carrots (yes, I make my own babyfood, it's fun really).  He ate it all.  So that was good.  But he had 3 immunizations and 1 flu shot, so guess who had a reaction to the flu shot, yep, the little man.  He got a nasty fever, runny nose, and just didn't feel good.  So, he refused all solids for the past 2 days.  Awesome little man, don't you know we are on probation here. 

And because of my lack of sleep (from his lack of sleep), I felt like the worst mother in the world after that appointment.  I cried in the room after the doctor left.  I called my husband and he asked if this was me overreacting or if it was that serious.  I told him I knew I was overreacting, but I am so emotional right now from my lack of sleep, I just felt awful. 

So since the ped appointment, he hasn't slept well because he is having a reaction to the flu shot.  His fever did break last night, and we instituited a sleep with mom night last night.  The hubs slept on the couch and the little man and I were in the bed together.  Everytime he woke up, I was there to feed him or console him.  The hubs slept much better, but guess what?  We both woke up with sore throats.  No!!!  I can't get sick!

If anyone has any advice on babies and sleeping, please tell me your secrets.  I feel like we have tried them all including some from my own baby whisperer

FYI - I did get all my training runs in last week.  I got to run my 9 miles alone on Saturday morning.  The air was cool and it was a great run.  I am hoping to get a nice 10 miles in this weekend if that is at all doable. 

I also have made some good recipes that I hope to post soon, I just haven't had the energy to do much posting period these days.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Off dairy again and the stuff that goes along with it

Several weeks ago, during the time when the little guy wasn't sleeping at all, we also noticed he had some tummy issues. I did some research and found that moms consuming dairy whole nursing can affect their little ones. That was the only thing that had changed about my diet. I had limited dairy while trying to lose the baby weight and it seems to give me more energy too. Well after the baby weight came off and I was running more, I added dairy back in for the calories. I was able to maintain my weight, but the little guy didn't approve. So now I am back off dairy, and I thought this would be a good time to try veganism (so no eggs either). I got the book (from the library), Veganist. I read it cover to cover in just days (that's pretty good when you don't have a lot of free time). She doesn't think eating soy is bad for you (something a lot of vegans and vegetarians have opposite opinions on). She also has some sample menus which included a good bit of fake meat (another controversial topic). It appears to be her way to get the protein you need.

So I have been doing the vegan thing for the past several weeks (a couple of slip ups), but for the most part, I have done pretty good. I am pretty hungry and have a difficult time getting that full feeling. Thing were going ok, until this week. I had serious troubles with my run on Tuesday and was sore for 2 days, aka not recovering well all of a sudden. Also, some of you may know that after you have a baby, your hair falls out, well mine has been falling out still. I was reading a post from Matt at No Meat Athlete about protein consumption. He mentions hair falling out and having a hard time recovering from workouts. Now I am concerned I am not getting enough protein to sustain my lifestyle (nursing my son and running 20-25 miles a week, cross training 1-2 times a week). I am getting so much conflicting statements, do I eat soy and fake meat to get my protein up, and how much protein should I be eating? Any good tips on foods with proteins that are easy that I might not be eating? I know there are people more active than me that have a vegan diet and perform well.

I hope to get a lot of comments and advice.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

MIA

Well this past week has been really tough to put it mildly. Finally, after 5 months of not sleeping well, trying to take care of my family, work, and run, I finally got broken down. I started to feel terrible. Despite all my healthy eating, taking my vitamins, etc., I was starting to feel ill. My throat was sore, my body felt spent. I couldn't shake it. The little man was not sleeping well despite our attempts of sleep training. I read a lot of different books on babies and sleeping and we came up with our own method when our daughter but she was older, so I didn't feel so bad. Out little guy though is a different story. He is tenacious to say the least. I won't go into our sleep training method right now, maybe another post. Well what we were doing was not working so he was waking up every 1.5 to 2 hours at night. From that, my immunity was starting to go down and fast. I woke up last Sunday and nursing hurt, and I mean hurt bad. I had at least one bad crack, maybe more. I thought it must be thrush. I talked to a lactation consultant and decided to start treating myself. Something had to be done. The little guy had no symptoms but I couldn't figure out why all this would be happening after 5 months of no problems. The treatment was going slow, especially when I had to nurse every 3 hours. The pain was excruciating. I wanted to cry every time I nursed. I talked to another LC and she added a few things to the list and I started pumping more (which I hate and it hurt too). Within a couple of days, it started to heal, but then I got a clogged ductfrom not fully emptying during his feeds. This was Friday morning. I hadn't run all week because I felt so bad and had planned to do an easy run on the mill that morning. It hurt so bad there was no way I could bounce around on the mill, so I took a hot shower to try to loosen it up. Of course, a clogged duct calls for lots of nursing and pumping to get rid of it. Awesome! By that evening I was able to get rid of it. I took the little guy to the ped on Thursday to make sure he was feeling ok. Between me having thrush and a sore throat, I thought it was best to make sure he was ok before continuing on with any type of sleep training. He checked out just fine and we discussed his sleeping. He weighed in at 15 pounds exactly and he is big enough to go all night without needing any milk. She thought he probably enjoyed having mommy all to himself in the dark quiet of night. He does seem to enjoy his mommy that's for sure. I was able to get out for a short 4 mile run with just the little guy yesterday. I wanted to more but I am glad I didn't. It was hot and my throat is still sore. I plan to get out again today, since I am feeling better again, but it is going to be really hot. Oh well. It's either that or run on the mill I guess. We will see. The little guy is sleeping better, but I am still recovering. I was suppose to do at least 21 or 22 miles this past week, and next week is supposed to be an easy week (16 miles). I am usually a stickler for rules and that includes training plans, but my body just said no this week. I am hoping to back next week.

So this is the reason I have been MIA the past couple of weeks. My meals have been boring and my exercise regimen has been non-existent. Being a mom and not feeling well sucks!!!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Runing while it H-O-T! and some stats

Well, we have had heat advisories for the past couple of days.  Like it's not hard enough to get out and run, now it's just down right HOT.  I went out yesterday with the kids at 9:00am and got my 5 miles in.  But I can tell you I was drenched in sweat when we returned home (and I am not a big sweater either). 

I would love to go out early in the morning, but it's just not realistic with little A not sleeping through the night.  Hopefully, in the next couple of months his sleep will be a little more predictable and I will be able to get out there and log some miles while everyone is still asleep.  Right now, he is waking up at 2:00, 5:00-5:30, and then at 7:00-7:30am.  At 5:00am, he usually won't fall back asleep unless he is in bed with us, so that I what we have been doing with him (and by us, I mean me).  I feed him in bed and then he falls back asleep.  I guess I could get up then maybe, I am afraid he is going to immediately wake up as soon as I leave, and then I will get it from the hubs when I return that little A woke up and was hungry.  I don't know, maybe I will try it one day and see how it goes.  Any advice from the peanut gallery on this (yes, I am still BFing exclusively).

Some stats for ya
Little A turned 4 months old on Sunday and he rolled over for the first time on Sunday too.  He went to the ped yesterday and he thriving.  He is up to 14lb. 4oz (25%tile).



My stats
Last week I hit my goal range for pre-preg weight.  According to Dr. Oz's book (it was on clearance for $3.99 on bn.com), you should have a range, not just one specific number.  I have always had a range along with a number.  My range is the number plus or minus 2 lbs., so last week I hit my number + 1.6lb., so I have considered that to be pre-preg.   So I made it back to my pre-preg weight in just under 4 months.  With Hope it was 4 1/2 months (gained a little more weight).  But both times, I did it slowly and other than my mental breakdown at the beginning, I didn't stress about it, just ate well and exercised.  The last 4 lbs. though, I really relaxed about though.  I lost 3lbs. in 5 weeks.  I know some people see that they are so close and try to crash diet or starve themselves to get there, but I read somewhere a long time ago, that when you only have those last few pounds, take it slow (0.5 -1.0 lb/week) and they will stay off.  I have since adopted that mentality and it has worked for me.

Running
In June, I logged 69.68 miles.  If I had known I was so close, I would have tried for 70.  Oh well, I am still getting back into running/training mode, so I will let it slide.  And at the end of June, I had logged 315.19 miles for the year.  Not too bad considering on Jan. 1 I was 7 months pg and then had a baby and had to recover.  My goal is 750 miles this year and I know I can log a lot more miles during the second half of the year compared to the first, so I am feeling good about that. 

I am trying to figure out my races for the fall.  Any races you like that I should do?  Especially ones in the ATL?

Saturday, April 23, 2011

These 6 weeks have flown by

I can't believe my little boy is already 6 weeks old already.  He is growing so fast.  Even me, who sees him everyday, all day, can see the changes in him.  His cheeks are getting so full and round; they are adorable.  His legs are also starting to fill out (he started off with some real bird legs), but the boy still has no butt.  Don't know where he gets that from.  :)

So I had my 6 week post-partum appointment as well.  All is good.  I checked out just fine and am good to go.  So of course, I celebrated with a 3 mile run.  I an tell you that I had been taking it easy after my OMG moment I have to lose all the baby weight and get back into running shape immediately.  I had only been running a couple of times period since then.  I feel much better that I have to.  (Thanks for all the great comments).  I am going to try get back easy.  That is going to be hard.  I am an all or nothing kind of person.  I feel like I should work out everyday, but I know that is not possible right now.  I am going to be make a goal to run 3 times a week, and of course, it won't be for long runs at the beginning.  I am also try to do some yoga.  I will keep you posted.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Thanks for the cyber hugs

Thanks for the great comments on my last post.  I don't know why I am so anxious about losing the baby weight.  I was not like this last time.  So weird.  I feel like a failure so much recently.  I feel like I am  not getting enough done around the house, not spending enough time with the daughter doing things she would want to do, not making great dinners, not losing the baby weight fast enough, etc.  Again, I don't know why I am feeling this way.  I was much more laid back last time.  I guess because I have been feeling better sooner, I feel like I should be getting more done, especially when it comes to losing weight.  I know I need to relax and chill out and let it be.  I am not sleeping much.  The son is not sleeping well so of course, I don't have a lot of energy to get me through the day.  I am also breastfeeding which means every 2 hours, I have to take a 20-30 minute break to feed him.  I don't mind doing it but I have to realize that, it takes a lot of time out of my day to feed the little man.  He is an eater! 

I am starting to work out again and am getting on a regular schedule with it so that is good.  I think that will continue to be the way I operate and not worry so much about eating.  I typically eat healthy, wholesome foods, so I should really worry about it. 

So I enjoyed my dessert last night (and tonight, ice cream both nights) and don't regret it.  I know I just need to relax.  I wish I could more.  Any tips to relaxing?

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Aidan's birthday story

Here you go.  FYI - it's long.

Wednesday (3/9/2011)
This was the first day I was starting to work from home the rest of the pregnancy.  It was so nice.  Hope went to MIL's house and I had the house to myself.  I got what I needed to done for work and was even able to do my 3 mile run on the treadmill (approx. 32 minutes).  It was raining so I couldn’t run outside.  It was a pretty good feeling run though.  It was a little hard to get motivated, but once I got on there, I knew I could do it.  I also packed a hospital bag for baby and me.  I picked Hope up at 4:30pm and headed home to make dinner.  Again, around 7pm, contractions started.  I got back on the couch with Hope and started timing them.  I started writing them down again.  They started at 7 minutes apart, then 6 minutes apart.  Again, when Adam called to tell me that he was on his way home (around 7:45pm), I told him I was having contractions again.  I told him they weren’t painful at all, just some tightening again.  Adam came home and put Hope to bed for me.  The contractions started to get closer, about 6 minutes apart.  By the time we went to bed, they were 5 minutes apart according to my chicken scratch so I got my Timex out to measure how long they were lasting.  To my surprise they were about 1 minute apart.  Well contractions 5 minutes apart and lasting for 1 minute is kind of when you should call the doctor.  And Adam was insistent that I call.  I told him, they were not painful contractions and were probably not even dilating my cervix at all, but he insisted.  I called and to my surprise, my OB was on call.  I told her what was going on, and she asked if I wanted to come in and get checked out.  I told her no because they weren’t painful so I doubted I was progressing any.  She said ok, but if my water broke, I had to come in immediately because things could go very quickly.  After that, I tried to go to bed.  Adam, on the other hand, started freaking out.  He was not ready for baby.  He started adding to my hospital bag all of his stuff.  He was a man on a mission.  He was running around cursing and worrying.  It was 11 days before my due date and Adam was planning on me at least getting through the weekend.  He even snapped at me.  I said, hey, I am one having the contractions.  He apologized but wasn’t mentally or physically ready for the baby to come tonight.  Finally, he had enough packed up and got back into bed and put on in a movie for us to watch. 
Thursday (3/10/2011)
I woke up and still had some contractions, but still not painful.  Adam and I decided that I would take Hope to her Mother’s Morning Out Program, but that I would then take Hope’s car seat over to my mother-in-law’s along with Hope’s bag in case I went into real labor.  I had a doctor’s appointment at noon that day, so I went home and worked until my appt.  I wasn’t timing the contractions, but I know they weren’t getting closer together.  I think they were pretty far apart actually.  My OB (Dr. Sun) saw me and I told her I was still having some contractions but they were pretty far apart right now, but I was still having them.  Last week she checked me and I was ½ cm dilated and the baby was pretty far up.  Today she expected to see some progress.  She checked me and I was 3 cm and she suspected all that dilating came from last night’s contractions.  She also did a quick ultrasound and the baby’s head was still down and even turned the right way, head facing back.  She said I could go to the hospital or I could go home.  I said I wanted to go home mostly because the contractions were still not painful and at She said I could go home, but if my water broke I had to rush it to the hospital.  I said ok.  I called Adam and told him that Hope needed to stay with his mom, because we were probably going to have a baby today or tomorrow.  I had been progressing and the contractions were still around.  Actually while at the hospital, I got very nauseous and a few of the contractions were uncomfortable.  He asked if he should come home.  I told him no, that I would keep him updated, but until I was feeling the contractions, there was no need to do anything different.  He also had an important conference call at 2:30pm that I wanted him to take if he could.  So I was on my way home, not feeling well at this point, and thought, hey, this might be my last day being pregnant and I haven’t had any fast food all pregnancy, so I stopped at a combo fast food joint (Arby’s and Wendy’s).  I got a large frosty (chocolate) and a medium curly q fries.  I went home and ate those and got my laptop and went upstairs to my lay in my bed.  I continued to work and rested and started timing my contractions through an online calculator.  The contractions had slowed down to 6-7 minutes apart.  I started to lose my mucus plug at 1:20pm.  I called my sister Val and told her that if my water broke, she would probably have to leave work immediately and drive me to the hospital because Adam was too far away to leave work, come home, and then drive me to the hospital.  Well, Val was a little concerned about me being home alone, so she went ahead and left work and came over.  She hung out with me on the bed and watched me work.  The contractions were 6-7 minutes apart lasting about one minute but not painful.  Adam called before his conference call and I told him I was fine.  Around 4pm, I sat up instead of laying down and folded laundry.  My contractions jumped to 5 minutes apart.  Around 4:30pm, I decided that Adam’s call was over so I could start moving around more and see if it did anything for me contractions.  The bloody show started at 4:30pm.  I decided to take a shower and dry my hair.  My contractions were then 2-5 minutes apart, still lasting about one minute.  Adam called at 4:40pm and said that he either needed to come home or he would go to a function he was supposed to go to.  I told him the contractions were coming closer together, although not painful, so he should come home.  He got home around 5:10pm and got changed and started putting the last of the items into our bag.  He also wanted to get pictures of the nursery and pictures of me like we did before we had Hope.  Around 5:30pm, I stopped laughing during contractions and joking around and started feeling them.  I told Adam, we should plan to leave for the hospital at 6pm if this continued.  I had no idea how far along I was.  I had non-painful contractions all day and now they were started to get painful.  So in between contractions we took pictures and got things ready.  I wanted to change the sheets in the bedrooms so when we got home everything would be nice and clean.  I also put away all of the laundry (yeah).  Well at 6pm, we left for the hospital.  The contractions were mild to moderate, so the ride the hospital was fine.  I wasn’t in that much pain, so it was fine.  As I was calling my OB’s office to tell them I was on my way (my OB was on call again that night, double score), my OB called me to see how I was doing.  I told her I was on my way.  She said she would call the front desk and tell them I was on my way, have the nurse check me and then give her an update.  We got to the hospital and the contractions were getting stronger.  I got checked in relativity quickly and got to my room (D-1).  It was 6:50pm.  We got settled and got some paperwork out of the way before I was too uncomfortable.  I told her I didn’t want drugs and that I didn’t have an epidural when I had my daughter.  She did not have me sign the epi page.  She checked me and I was so hopeful.  Then she said, you are 3-4 cm dilated.  What???  I hadn’t progressed at all.  This was not good in my mind.  After one hour of contractions, I was dying.  I told Adam I might need the epi.  I was hurting so bad.  I asked the nurse to check me again because if I hadn’t made some decent progress, I was going to need some drugs.  I was dying.  She said they didn’t like to check patients very often because it could introduce bacteria.  I was annoyed!  I didn’t know this at the time, but Adam felt like he was failing as my coach because I was wanting drugs and he knew how important it was for me to go natural.  He got on his blackberry and googled labor and positions and breathing techniques (something that we had not revisited since having Hope.  He said, let’s change potions.  I thought I don’t care about changing positions, I am dying here.  He said “Let’s sit you up and lean on me when you have a contraction.  I will rub your back and listen to my breathing and repeat it.”  Well that next contraction was much more manageable and I immediately thought that it must have been a weaker contraction (I couldn’t see the monitor when I was sitting up. Adam encouraged me and told me how well I was doing and that when we got here, the contractions were only in the50’sand now they were in the80’s and I was doing great.  I was shaking like a leaf.
At 9:00pm, my OB, who was on call for the evening, came in to see how I was doing.  She knew I didn’t want drugs, but I told her I was in a lot of pain, the contractions were coming very close together, and I didn’t get much rest between them.  She asked if I wanted her to check me and I said “YES!”  She said that I was about at 5 cm.  In 2 hours, I have progress about 2 cm.  She asked if I wanted my water broken.  I said “NO!”  I told her I was afraid the contractions would come even harder and faster, but not really help me progress that much.  My OB said that she thought I would progress much faster if my water was broken.  She said that if I didn’t, then I could get the epi because I had to go through an entire bag of saline before I could have the epi anyway.  I said ok.  So at 9:05pm, my water was broken.  Not much came out, but what did come out had meconium in it.  I was shocked.  He was 10 days early, so I was surprised there was any meconium.  It wasn’t like he was 10 days late.  So that meant, we had to have a special time in the room when I delivered.  It also meant that he couldn’t be brought on my chest after I delivered him.  That really bummed me out.  I got to do that with Hope and I really felt like that was a big bonding moment for Hope and me.  One contraction later, my OB checked me again, and I was already 6 cm.  A few more contractions, again still sitting up leaning on Adam and him rubbing my back, and my OB checked again, and I was 7-8 cm.  I was progressing fast.  Thank goodness!  Adam was helping me with my breathing too.  I had to start my deep breathing before the contraction was painful to really focus or I wasn’t going to get through it.  That was the nice thing about having no drugs.  I could feel the contraction coming on before the monitors picked it up, so I could tell Adam that I needed him and he could come over and take his position.  He didn’t have to wait for a monitor to tell him anything.  He just listened to me.  He told me to focus on something.  He said for him it would be palm trees like the ones in Hawaii (Hawaii is our favorite place in the world).  I tried to do that, but I was having real trouble with the whole focus point.  I was focusing on Adam’s green shirt instead.  I did notice that my OB had put on some.  All of a sudden during one contraction, I felt the urge to push.  She checked me and said all I had left was a little lip but she thought she could get the baby around it.  I started to move around to get in position during the next contraction as everyone rushed in and they were changing the bed around to put the stirrups in and as a contraction started I asked if I could push.  My OB said yes, so as they are changing the bed, setting up the baby station, etc. I started to push halfway through the contraction.  As the contraction finished, my doctor said, he’s right there, I can see his head.  I replied “I know.”  I could feel his head had come way down and was right there.  I told everyone that the next contraction was coming.  No one was holding my feet or anything.  There was no counting to 10.  I just bared down and pushed as hard as I could.  It took the entire contraction, but with it, my little boy was delivered at 9:44pm (40 minutes after my OB broke my water and just over 4 hours after contractions really started).  At first glance, I thought he looks smaller than I had expected.  Adam had the camera ready and was getting pictures immediately and gushing over his son.  FYI – I got no love from anyone.  My OB quickly suctioned him out and asked Adam he wanted to cut the cord.  Of course Adam did and then my son was whisked away over to the baby station.  He was already crying.  He was crying loud which sounded so good to my ears.  Adam went over there to take pictures and check on our son.  I was now freezing, shaking more, and needed to be fixed up.  All of sudden, I start hearing that my son (who still has no name yet) isn’t holding his oxygen levels and is requiring O2.  Are you serious???  I had gone most of the pregnancy with minimal problems, he has to be ok.  Finally it was decided that our little boy was going to need to go to the NICU.  I wanted to cry.  They hadn’t done any of his measurements, given him a bath or anything.  They wrapped him up and brought him over to me.  They let me hold him for about 30 seconds.  I looked into his eyes and started talking.  He finally stopped crying.  I told him to be good and I would see him later.  They put him in the incubator and took him away from me again.  I told Adam I was fine and that he needed to go with our son and make sure everything would be ok and give me updates since I was still being fixed up.  I think Adam finally gave me a kiss and he went up.  I texted our families that our son was here.  They immediately got in the car, but I told them he was in the NICU and who knew if they would see him.  Adam called and said he was doing better and they had done his stats.  His apgars were 8 and 8.  He weighed 6lb. 5oz., 19 ¼ inches long, head circum. was 12 ½ inches, and chest was 12 ¼ inches.  He was 5oz. smaller than Hope.  I was surprised.  I told him not to come down again until he named our son.  I was all fixed up (2nd degree tear) and given motrin.  I was moved up to my room and 3+ hours later, my son was returned to me with a clean bill of health.  He had just been given formula so I had to wait a few more hours before I could breastfeed him.  I was so happy to have him in my arms, and I don't plan to let him go forever.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Where have I been?

Having a baby!!!  I had some nonpainful contractions on Wed. night (3/9).  Real contractions started at 5:30pm on Thurs. (3/10) and Aidan Spencer was born at 9:44pm (10 days early) weighing in at 6lb. 5oz. and is 19.25 inches long.  He had a brief episode in which took him to the NICU, but he was returned to us after a few hours.  Since then, he has been wonderful.  We got home from the hosital today.  I promise to get some pictures posted soon as well as the birth story (for those interested).

Monday, February 21, 2011

Snuggle time and why it's so important

Most of you know that little Hope has given up her crib to baby #2 and has gotten her own big girl bed.  Well we are still trying to get all the kinks out of that, but there has been one big pro to this upgrade (other than having to buy another crib for #2).  It's snuggle time.  After she gets her book, which we read to her in bed, she has become a big fan of snuggle time before she goes to sleep.  So I will tuck her in and then she grabs my neck and pulls me in as close as she can and says "I love you."  I give her a kiss and tell her I love her too.  After that, we snuggle from 10 to 45 minutes depending on how cooperative she is.  But since our little toddler has been on the move (at 12 months) she doesn't stop to just snuggle as much as she used to, so I have really enjoyed the snuggle time I am getting right now. 

I always remember snuggling with my mom, but now I appreciating it from a different perspective and how she must have felt with me wanting to snuggle with her.  My sisters and I were all in favor of the mom snuggle, so she got plenty, and it didn't stop when we were teenagers or even adults.  I remember just a few weeks before my wedding.  I was living at home while my mom was recovering from more chemo and surgeries from cancer and I wanted to help out.  My mom's nightly ritual was to take a quick bath, and then watch a little tv in bed.  I remember going up there several nights and slipping in my pajamas and sliding into bed and watching tv with her.  I would usually end up snuggling up close to her and she would give me a big hug.  I was 25 years old and was not ashamed of being snuggled by my mother.  That was probably one of the last times I really got to snuggle with my mom.  I remember it so fondly.  By the time most of you read this, it will be the 4 year anniversary of my mom's passing.  She was not only a special lady, but a wonderful mother, whom I always had a great relationship with (even during my teen years).  I have many regrets in regards to my mother (little things like telling her I love her one last time and having her tell me she loved me too, asking her questions about myself as a child that my dad doesn't remember, etc.), but one thing I don't regret is snuggling with her, even as an adult.  I do know that I am a lot like her, so I can imagine how warm and fuzzy it must have made her feel snuggling with her 25 year old baby.  I hope I will have the same kind of relationship with Hope that my mom had with me.  And I hope Hope snuggles with me for many more years to come.  So as you read this, please think and pray for me on 2/22 that I make it through the day.  It is an extremely difficult day for me, but being 8 months pregnant and EXTREMELY hormonal will not make it any easier.  I loved my mom with all my heart, and it breaks my heart that my daughter never got the chance to meet her.  I love you Mom!

Monday, August 2, 2010

Hope traveling with me

I mentioned a while back about Hope traveling with me on a business trip. My grandmother went with us to help take care of Hope while I was working. She was so good and a delight to have with me. It was great to have her so close since we were gone for 6 straight days. That would have been too long to go without seeing that cute little face. Here are just a few pics from the trip.



Hope does not get to watch much tv at home, but recently has become obessed with a few shows; one of them being Barney (I know, not my fav at all). So I got a few netflix videos for Hope for the trip. Taking them with the portable dvd player was a godsend on the airplane. She was so quiet, no one minded having a toddler next to them. ;)

Tryin to be mommy. In my bed, with my book pretending to read. So cute!!!


And of course, here we have her continued love for milkshakes.
I am glad I was able to take her. It is something I will always remember. Luckily, I don't have to travel much for work, so I get to see Hope everyday, but I am glad I was able to make it work for this long trip.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Race Pictures - ING Half marathon

I finally got the pictures uploaded from the ING a couple of weeks ago. It was cool and rainy so major props to my family for coming out to support me.

Here is Hope in her stroller, blanket and her new raincoat waiting for mommy around mile 9.

Hope thinking she sees me. She got so excited!

That is me in the pink top and green shorts. Adam bought me that outfit for my Oct. race as a way of being supportive but then it's easier to pick me out of the crowd.
After the race at home with mom and her medal. It was a pretty good race overall. I was not a huge fan of the rain, but it did help keep the temperature down, which is good when you are running 13 miles.

Now I am working on speed as distance running season is coming to an end and shorter races are coming up. I have 2 5k's in my future. One is the Race for the Cure which is a huge race, but also one of my favs. It is a great atmosphere and we always run it for my mom. If you are an Atlantan, I highly recommend this race. It has a lot of personality and jogging stroller are allowed. Yeah! Register here.
My fastest 5k time is currently 24:25, so I am hoping to break 24:00. Wish me luck!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Bittersweet Symphony


Yeah, I like the song. It's good for running, pumps me up. But this blog entry is not about running. It's about breastfeeding. Shortly after Hope turned 15 months, she didn't want to nurse one time in the middle of the day (she was nursing 2-3 times a day at this point). Then the next night, she didn't want to nurse before bed. That was shocking! Hope had never refused the boob before, especially before bed. This is the same child who even at 12 months, wouldn't unlatch on her own. The next day she went back to nursing. But since then she started to self wean. One night she just stopped and hasn't nursed since.


When I was pregnant, I thought my goal was 12 months. Then when Hope was 6 months old, I found nursing to be a bonding time and thought I would nurse as long as she wanted to. Then when Hope was 9 months old, I heard from the lactation consultant at my office. She said not to stop breastfeeding during the horrible cold and flu season. Adam was not on board with this. He thought it was one and done kind of a thing. I think he was a little jealous, but he wouldn't admit to it. We also want to try for more children and while breastfeeding, I wasn't having a cycle, hence no possible way for me to get pregnant. So my goal was to nurse until Hope was 16 months old (Valentine's Day).


Well about a week ago, Hope had her own timeline and just stopped nursing. It was very strange. I was/am a little upset, but I am glad it was her decision. I know a lot of mom's stop breastfeeding for different reasons, but for me, it would be selfish to stop for a personal reason. So it's good that it was her decision. So for the past week, Adam has been doing the bedtime routine so I could pump (yeah, just because she's done doesn't mean I am done). Adam loves the new bedtime routine. He could never do it all, because I would always nurse her right before bed. So I have been enjoying a glass of wine or a beer and of course a diet coke last Sunday night. It's wasn't as good as I remembered it. :(


So I didn't make my goal of 16 months, but I am very happy that Hope made the decision so I didn't have to. She is a big girl who is growing up before my very eyes.

Friday, August 14, 2009

Went to The Children's Museum for FREE

Adam was up early Tuesday morning (couldn't sleep) and was flipping channels while he was ironing his shirt before the Today Show was even on. He heard that The Children's Museum had free admission that afternoon. He told me about it and I looked it up and sure enough he was right. It's called the Target Free Second Tuesdays. From 1:00 - 7:00pm, it's free admission for everyone. I had to work on Tuesday, so we left right after I finished up. Now Hope is only 10 months old (just today in fact), so there wasn't much for her to do, but she did have a good time. They had a second for 2 and unders, so we spent most of time there. I felt like she wasn't going to get trampled on by the older children. It was fun and I think she had a good time. So, I have marked on my calendar, the next 2nd Tuesdays for the rest of the year and hopefully, we can make some of those. Here are some pictures of Hope at the museum.

Hope on the infant water bed

Hope laughing at the blocks

Got a block for herself


Playing the piano


Hanin' on the bean bag chair

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Baby Food


So I have had a lot of people ask me about food I am feeding Hope right now. Ever since I have been on my own, I have loved to cook. I started doing a lot more when I was married. Sometimes it's hard when you are just cooking for yourself, but when you have another person to cook for, then you are do more. And the invention of the Food Network helped too!

So before Hope was born, I was considering making her baby food. I mean I like being in the kitchen, and I want to know what is going into her body, so why not. Of course, I admit, I was scared. I mean, baby food is expensive, so it must be very labor intensive and require heating things to a specific temperature to kill off bacteria, right? Wrong! I asked for a baby food cookbook for Christmas and got this one. I really like! Everything I read said not to worry about getting a cookbook, just steam and then puree. Well I didn't think it was that easy, but it is really. Of course, I like having the cookbook for reference. Also, I am/was clueless what babies can eat and when. Hearing that there is no real rhyme or reason to most of it, didn't help either. I am the person that follows instructions so I wanted to know what to do and when. Well reading the baby food cookbook helped! I now have recipes broken down by ages. Of course, the book starts solids at 4 months, and I didn't start until 6 months (recommendation from Hope's ped to not start solids if I was exclusively breastfeeding, which I was). The book recommended not making the baby cereal because of the fortified iron it in, which I also heard from a lactation consultant. So we did/do buy Earth's Best Cereals for Hope. But other than that, I have made the rest of her food. I just steam the fruits and veggies, peel them and put them in the food processor to puree. You don't need a special processor to make baby food. We did get some special containers as a gift for freezing. I have played it safe waiting at least 4 days before trying something new, so she probably hasn't had as much as most babies her age, but I am a cautious mom, what can I say. We have also been able to introduce to foods that you can't buy in baby food jars. So far, Hope has had:

Rice cereal
Carrots
Sweet potatoes
Acorn squash
Peas
Green beans
Broccoli
Oatmeal cereal
Apples (didn't like the Gala apples I bought) :)
Bananas (I recommend introducing bananas early, because you don't have to do anything but mash them up and they are portable too)
Pears
Avocado
Mango
Multi-grain cereal
Peaches
Edamame
Plums
She has also started eating organic cheerios.

The cookbook does promote organic eating. Adam and I eat organic with our fruits and veggies, eggs, and most of our dairy. Adam eats some of his meat organic and about half of our grains are organic. We are fortunate that we have a farmer's market less than 2 miles from our house, so I can get lots of organic fruits and veggies are very reasonable prices. I personally feel that eating organically for Hope is important right now, because I don't want her little body exposed to pesticides. They have been linked to ADD, ADHD, and several forms of autism. Autism does run on Adam's side of the family, so it's important to us.

The cookbook also goes way beyond just pureed fruits and veggies. I just bought some green lentils and brown rice (both organic) for a recipe in the cookbook. Now, where can you get that in a jar? I think this cookbook will give Hope a wide variety of foods at an early age and hopefully promote healthy eating habits as she grows up.

So if you are thinking about making your own baby food, it's not nearly as daunting as I thought it was. It just takes a little extra time in the kitchen. With several veggies, I just steamed a whole bunch. We ate some for dinner and then I pureed the rest for Hope. Didn't take much time at all.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Our trip to the Lake



So I finally downloaded the pictures of us at the lake last weekend and thought I would share some of Hope's firsts. This was the first time Hope was in a bathing suit, and I know I am her mother, but boy did she look cute. She hated the PFD (personal flotation device) because it would ride up. We got her the infant one, but it is for anyone less than 30lbs. She was 14lb. 4.5oz. at 6 months, so she will have this PFD for a while. :)

Last summer when we were in FL, Adam saw a baby in a float with a canvas overhang and said we had to get one for Hope for this summer. The little girl in FL had a ladybug one and Adam wanted to exact same one. Luckily we found (after going to 5 different stores).

It was also nice that we were able to go out on the boat because I was dying to waterski. I wasn't able to go last summer because I was pregnant, so I was happy to go this year. I was the first female to get up on the first try with the new boat and skis. Yeah for me!!! If I had better form, I would post a picture. Maybe next time.

Friday, June 12, 2009

You must be Hope's mom


On Monday, I was in the lactation room at work and a woman came in to pump. There are only a handful of us moms that use the room and we have all posted pictures of our children and their names and birthdays. The woman that came in I had never seen before, but that's not unusual. She took one look at me and said, "You must be Hope's mom." I responded yes, but I was taken aback. Wow, I have never been referred as Hope's mom before. It was weird (a nice weird). I have been Adam's wife and Kevin's daughter, but never Hope's mom. I liked the idea of being Hope's mom. It's my new role! I was just surprised to hear it out loud. It's funny how those things happen to you and really make you think. Of course, I have been Hope's mom for almost 8 months now, but never had ever said that to me like that. I have embraced my new role and do truly love it.


Peace,

Hope's Mom